the pain of you leaving...

i feel really sad about what's happening now... may be this is really the wake up call for me that things will never ever be the same between us. i know that this pain will remain for a while but then i can get thru all of this. you always say that i'am strong and that i will be a versy successful person someday and i'm gonna prove that to you. and when that time comes you will regret the day that you let me go... i loved you for who you are and what you've become... i have always been there for you no matter what but then maybe we were really not meant to be... cause my friends are right... if you really love me you could not have the guts to tell that to me... but hey... that's you... and like what you've said... you grew up in the western way... so i can't blame you for being like that and you can't blame me either. like the saying

"pagsisisi ay parating nasa huli"

i'm not the one who would feel this... i'm sure that it's you... sorry for all of my short comings but this time i know that i've had enough.. and enough is enough... no more martyrdome...

it's painful but i have to let you go...

-xoxo-

heartaches... :(

after a long time i get to write again... well so many things had happened for the past weeks and months... you may say that i may have been so dramatic.. hahaha... well in some instances it's true... sometimes i cry every night just because of the same thing... now i could really say that things in this world are really unpredictable. you can't always get what you want and let go of what you don't like... people come and go and sometimes when they leave they always leave a mark in your heart... it's just a lesson that you should be careful and you should be sure of what decisions you would be making... because once it has been said and done it's really hard to get it back... pain is just measurable by numbers... a scale of 1 to 10 maybe... but you must always remember that pain even though is there and being felt in a period of time will fade away... you must let time pas by and let your feelings flow so that it would be easier for one to let go... letting go is never that easy... you may think that letting go is just as easy as 1,2,3.. no it's not it's harder than anyone would've ever thought of... letting go would happen if you would accept the facts why this and that happened... you just need to smile and let the feelings flow...